I met with Lynn this afternoon via Skype. She was very direct with me. She kept saying, "What am I going to do with you, Jo Ann? I just don't know what to do with you."
She told me that she knows that I wrote on this blog that I am NOT a "believer." She stated that I've made it public that I've rejected Jesus.
It's hard to know what to "do with me."
I told her that for some reason, I want to keep the "door" slightly open, but I just don't want to be a Christian.
The thing is, Jews for Jesus is about telling Jews that Jesus is the messiah, showing them the "way" and then making sure they are "grounded" in a church.
I don't want to go that route, but...
I believe in God with my whole heart and mind. I just want to seek God as a Jew. I am a hopeless case it seems from a certain point of view...
Thinking about all of this is very uncomfortable.
Well...it's almost time for Shabbat. Tonight I will attend Temple Beit Torah with my family and seek God. I will ask God to continue to guide me and help me figure out what to do.
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