My Rambling Thoughts 8-12-2012

Why do I have such a hunger for God and desire to learn all about God and biblical history, but feel like I know nothing about God and feel God is so far away? How could I have pretended to know anything about God ever?

I feel like I am several people at times. I become what people around me want me to be. Are there other Jewish people like me trying to seek God and dealing with all the issues I deal with?