Small Plane Crash Made Me Wonder If God Does Exist

Keith Green and two of his children died in a small plane crash on July 28, 1982. That was thirty years ago. The Greens had four children. Three year old Josiah and two year old Bethany were on the plane. Also, John and Dede Smalley and their six children died in that crash.

Melody Green was actually pregnant with child #4 at the time and there was a baby that didn't go on that plane.

I woke up this morning thinking about that plane crash, and also about the tragic plane crash that just happened to one of the skating families in Colorado Springs.

I just read about Trish Porter. I knew nothing about her before this past Thursday.  She was just another loving parent who took her kid ice skating. I've now learned that she is a strong, brave, and an amazing woman who has been through so much already. I know people will tell me that God had a reason for 1/2 of Melody Green's family to perish and that there must be a reason that something similar has just happened to the Porter family.

Pat Porter had just been inducted into the Rocky Mountain Hall of Fame on July 20, 2012.

The next morning, on July 21, I was sitting in the stands in the Colorado Springs World Arena Ice Hall watching my kids do pair skating.  Annabelle had a bad fall on the double twist lift.  Trish Porter was sitting right in front of me in the stands.  She asked if Annabelle would be okay.  It's hard for me to fathom that five days later, her life, and the life of her daughter, Shannon (who was skating on the same practice session as Annabelle and Joel), would have their lives changed forever.  It almost seems like a dream and it just can't be real.

I didn't know the Porters really, but they were such a "light" at the World Arena. Trish is so friendly and all the skaters love Shannon.  I didn't know Keith or Melody Green either, but I did visit their commune once just after I finished college.  Both people just sort of touched me, so I feel some connection with them.

These two small plane crash tragedies happened almost exactly 30 years apart to the day. Both women had amazing husbands, but also, both women maybe (or were/are) "called by God" (I don't usually use that lingo) to go on and to tell others that God is in charge.

I admit I have wondered how something so horrible could happen at all. In fact, horrible things have occurred in Colorado this past summer.

This week, I began to question if there is a God at all after hearing about the Porter tragedy, but thinking about Melody Green and how she went on for 30 years and kept on believing in God helps me to continue to believe that God does exist.  There has to be a reason that God allowed these things to happen.

I am still so, so sad and I'm thinking of Trish and Shannon Porter and also I'm thinking of the family of the other boy (who was a Collin Porter's friend) who also died in this tragedy.  I wish I could hug them.  I also wish I could hug the families that lost loved ones in the Aurora shootings.  I am also so sad for the families that lost their homes in the Waldo Canyon Fire.

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